Beginners, here's how to play Slow Blues Piano

INTRO TO NYCMASSEUR

1-19-24 Check-in, Karma, content creation - not in that order!

Fighting this tremendous sense of both cabin fever and a hard-core cold (my first in a year). Also fighting the urge to drink (I will get my nightly ONE beer and cocktail with bitters but later). The neighbors upstairs seemed to be chilling out which is nice. (No BUMP BUMP STOMP STOMP! Whew what a relief).

So I did rent studio time but likely not going to bike over to Abrons Art Center to play. The piano is dreadfully out of tune. And thanks to my friend Audrey (“Teatime for the Sensitive Musician”) I deduced, formulated, created 4 major creative chores that I want to accomplish tonight! Interesting that one of the major “obstructions/blocks” to creative flow that we floored today and did lots of Emotional Freedom Technique i.e., “tapping” on today was procrastination and I bare witness herein that I’m guilty. We also clarified what's known as "9 gamut" and eye movements with humming. Procrastination, distractions, gosh...yes I’ll blame it on the cabin fever. So restless...maybe an edible will help. NOW.

Clients slow; just some dingbat student called up today. She sounded like a rich, spoiled brat and displayed not one iota of gratitude when I said I’d do her for an hour for a C-note. She continued to ask inane questions and finally hung up when I said that any interaction sensually speaking had to be “safe” (i.e., condoms). I blocked “it.” More and more I have been running into these younger queens who not only desire full out penetration but also insist on being bred (Skin to Skin) which basically means they want fluids (from the master masseur) deposited directly into their “bank vaults” interest free I might add. Interesting. Does it make them feel more authentically validated?! I wonder? Probably not. Ego boost though. Maybe it’s the two-spirit urge i.e. “ape the female egg fertilization” act. Who knows?

Anyway popularity growing on my YT channel (some 12G plus views lately – wow) and I have no doubt it’s because I’m doing my talking heads thing without wearing a shirt. LOL. The highest viewed video was called “doing exercise while smiling.” Me thinks I’m totally over thinking this whole Social Media thing. Today I discussed Content creation, self-pleasuring and karma.

See the latest link below (this vlog log entry also contains a demo on cross-fiber friction on myself and yes my knee does feel much better thank you Steve—you’re welcome Healing ‘ho. : ). LOL.

These are all currently private. Please email if you wish to view! Thanks! nycmasseur dot com/blog

Thanks for reading my blog and call hot Daddy tonight as he/she/it/they definitely IS available. Friday 6:54 PM 1-19-24...)

THE BRAIN EXCHANGE c. 2023 by Saintorr

RSD0089 on Manhunt.com was sending me lots of emails about getting together. He had one of those headless torso pictures. It was quite muscular which I found attractive. But headless. And you never know what kind of face you’re going to get with those. One day he finally sent me a picture of his face. He was Asian with lots of acne, a blotchy red complexion and a slight overbite. He looked to be in his late 30's. He called himself Norman. I re-christened him homely but hot "Normal Norman."

You see, I’m in inventor. I call myself a doctor, though I don’t put any stock in certifications and degrees. They’re all just pieces of paper, letters behind a name, and so much blithering dogma. I am a student of the universe, entirely self-taught and free from the constraints of conventional society and its drudging institutions. While most peons march mindlessly through the muck of ordinary living and boring days on their way to the grave, my mind soars at the speed of light!

I invited Normal Norman over to my loft on the Upper Westside of Manhattan. I own an entire floor, with a private elevator of course. It doubles as my laboratory. After he arrived, I drugged him with a sleeping powder I’d purchased at my favorite Santeria Shop on Eldridge St., then, I stripped him buck naked and strapped him tightly onto the padded and heated steel table in my lab, I like my subjects to be comfortable. His body was very well-toned and even more muscular than I had noticed in that headless picture. I began to play with his cock and instantly it became fully erect with a fine, cut, mushroom head. What joy! I had the urge, so I sucked him. Semi-conscious, he began to writhe and moan within the straps. I kept working it, and after about five frenzied minutes of intense cock-sucking, the hot cum exploded in my mouth. I swallowed it all, then I sat back and took three deep breaths.

The steel table upon which he lay made up an integral part of my latest and most glorious invention called “the brain exchange.” Besides being padded and comfortably heated, as I mentioned before, my table can accommodates two. Eight sets of straps of adjustable lengths (to secure any body type) built to gently constrain, secure, and induce my experimental subjects to remain calm and motionless. I have a fetish for passive, constrained bodies, bodies I'm free to have my way with. Heavenly.

Next to Normal Norman lay my other subject. A six-year-old named Musette whom I’d kidnapped (a-hem, acquired) from the Short Hills shopping mall in New Jersey two nights before. Musette was a golden-haired princess, a carbon copy of the hapless Jon Benet Ramsey. After plucking her from that horribly overpriced mall, stealing her back to my lab, stripping and strapping her tiny nude perfect body on top of my padded steel table, I must admit, I--I couldn’t help myself. I began kissing her all over and, and even smooching her tiny, hairless little twat. Out of fear I suppose--she peed right in my face--a jet of hot urine burning straight into my eyes. She was screaming and crying for her mommy and daddy. Her carrying on was unbearable, until I applied Esmeralda. Esmeralda is my magic wand, my cattle prod, my stop-talking-back teaching tool. A few delicate taps, with a tiny ZIP ZIP here and a ZIP ZIP there, followed by the soft, subtle aroma of singeing, girl-child flesh, and touche, tough love is born, along with sweet, golden silence.

After some conditioning, Musette began to change her attitude toward me. During our lessons, I applied Esmeralda if she misbehaved or acted ungrateful in any way. If she showed me affection, smiled, and expressed a nuance of vulnerable intimacy, I applied a single, small drop of medical grade pure golden heroin to her lips. This heavenly candy, I had acquired from my dealer Fernando at a very hefty fee. Musette was a smart child who responded very well to discipline, and even better to addiction. How fondly I recall the words I used to transform her tiny heart from a thing of fear, to a thing of unconditional desire for her new Daddy and doctor--me. And to think I also induced in her, a childlike but almost souless craving for that Heavenly Candy, which only I could supply.

Over and over again, I instructed in a soothing voice; “Your have a new name now, your new name is Musette. I am your Daddy, and your doctor. You will enjoy my kisses on your mouth and when I kiss you where your pee pee comes out, it will make you happy. It will make you smile—like ice cream and cookies make you smile. Otherwise angry Esmeralda will come again and sting you like a big bad spider!"

I could see her wheels turning, and after more applications of my handy tool (forgive my indelicate double entendre) over the course of 48 hours, my darling little captive love slave came around. By the time I had to leave our little Love Lab Lair, to meet, greet, procure and constrain Normal Norman, Musette was begging me to kiss her fully on the mouth and lips; crying for me to stimulate her small but hungry pussy by fingering or nibbling on it gently. But alas, it was never enough. Even after hours of stimulation, Musette opened her mouth for more. Then I applied that single drop of heavenly candy. She was voracious, whether for the sexual stimulation or for the candy, I'm not sure. At one point during my instruction, my golden-maned little love goddess did in fact cum. I’m quite sure, in fact, I both saw, and tasted it with my own eyes. The milky wisps of her girl-child jism gurgling out of her hot hairless hummingbird hole like petite waves of vanilla cream spurting out again and again. I licked away every drop while she sighed and giggled and shivered. She was making outstanding progress, yet there was one thing I had to fix. I abhor the female personality and it had to be extracted from that tiny body. This is where Normal Norman came in.

After all the preparations were complete, I stared down at both subjects. First at naked Normal Norman, moaning softly with his exquisite body and blotchy pizza face, then at lovely little Musette looking every bit the love-starved little cupid that my insidious and psychotic lessons had trained her for. She turned her head toward me, slit her eyes, and panted, like a hungry little nympho. As she wriggled her wrists and legs in the constraints, I noticed there was something almost feral in her contenance. She was pursing, then smacking her lips, then chomping and gnashing her tiny pearl-like teeth. For a moment, they looked pointed. There was no sound, except for the clicking and grinding of the teeth. As I kept staring at her, she became more like a little, hungry ghost or a demon, than a mere girl-child and I found myself getting hard. I had to fight the urge to clamp down on her neck with my bare hands, until her tiny hyoid bone went POP. Then I would fuck her, lifting her by the neck, and lowering her onto my steel cock like a skewer. Stabbing into her tiny hole, I would push her down deeper and deeper onto me, until the hole began to rip, bouncing her on the sharp tip of my seething cock like a lifeless used tampon. I would fuck her up and down, again and again. I myself, became the devil and my cock as a serrated pitchfork-shaped eel, with only one all-consuming urge, to drill and cut and slice, until the friction and the stimulation made me explode with hot endless spurts of cum. Could there be a trace of her child hymen remaining after all this rubbing, power pumping and penetration? I would find out. I would suck her hole then, like a straw-toothed dragon, draining and biting into her like a gnashing, famished; meat-eating monster feeds on some smaller, insignificant prey. I gasped and opened my eyes. The fantasy passed.

Now, both my lovelies were strapped onto the steel table as I told you, each secured by their own set of straps. They were the picture of docility. Norman, so still with the sleeping powder still in effect, and Musette, lulled into a trance by a few drops of her beloved Heavenly Candy which I had applied eariler to her angelic, demonic, cherry pink lips.

I had also strapped onto both their heads another element of my Brain Exchange, the brain caps, which resembled a combination of both a yamaka (a bit of a homage I suppose to my living so long in my beloved New York—or “Jew York” as I sometimes playfully referred to it), and a skull cap. However these parts of my machine were made of copper, thus facilitating the conduction of the electric current carrying the transference in, around, and through my subject’s heads and culminating in the exchange of the essences of their brains’ wealth of knowledge and memories, indeed their very personalities, or their very Souls with each other. This was my creation and I loved it as only a father could.

I pulled the switch. At once both my subjects’ bodies became rigid and contracted up off the tables, their chests arched into frozen angles, as if in electrical shock. They were rigid for a few moments, then the machine stopped, and both bodies fell back into their former, neutral, relaxed positions. Their breathing resumed its normal rhythm. Their faces looked calm, peaceful even, as if they were dreaming.

I roused the body of Musette—which now contained the personality, heart and soul of Normal Norman. I gave her water, caressed her and spoke in assuring whispers for her to not be afraid. "All is well my darling, I must run a little errand but will be right back," I said to her.

As for Norman, I dressed him in a loud red polka-dot pinafore and saddle-shoes, then led him into my van with his hands tied in front of him. He was as docile as a lamb. I fastened his seat belt and drove us out to the far reaches of the Brooklyn Queens Expressway. I drove past polluted marshlands and cheap, ugly housing projects. I turned off the main highway. We were somewhere outside Great Neck, Long Island. I stopped and set Norman free, unlocking his seat belt and pushing him out the van door. He fell down but got back up. I felt sorry for him, looking so lost and sad and out of place with his new body. He began to cry.

“Don’t worry Musette—I’ve called your parents and your Mummy will be by shortly to pick you up” I said. “What's happened to me??" he pleaded, crying louder, "Don’t leave me-don't leave me!" I took off quickly. I didn't look back, for there’s nothing worse than hearing the pleading of a six-year-old-girl coming out of the mouth of a grown man with a bad complexion wearing an ugly dress. I drove back to my lovely prize, knowing that now inside the body of this little girl, was the brain of full grown man.

In honor of the victory of the happy ending to my experiment, I felt very gay and reckless. Musette, now with Normal Norman’s brain safely ensconced in her lovely little velveteen body, and I moved to South America. I let the news leak out via the global terrorist black market of what my invention was, its unlimited applications as a weapon, and its availability to the highest bidder. Covert negotiations commenced with several reliable sources whose funds numbered in the billions. Shortly my invention was sold to the highest bidder.

The first month of settling in Brazil, I received a down payment of $2 billion dollars from an Israeli Defense contractor desperate for my Brain Exchanger. The second month in our new location, I made Musette undergo plastic surgery to alter her appearance. This was necessary to cover any traces of our old life and to avoid any suspicion, given our age difference. Finally, I adopted her.

For years in a mansion by the sea in one of the wealthiest suburbs of Rio we enjoyed the sun, fine dining, attentive servants, and the carnal pleasures of each other’s bodies. When bored, we often indulged in the cheap, gorgeous black-haired, Brazilian whores who sold distraction, comfort, and sensual release. Sometimes men and sometimes women.

This went on for two decades, until dear Musette met with a tragic accident. While hand-feeding the twenty-four piranahas we kept in our floor-to-ceiling aquarium, she fell in. In a matter of moments, the fish had ravaged her, biting off her legs, breasts, and part of her vagina. During her slow and painful convalescence, the injuries proved to be too much. The big finish came when she overdosed on a lethal cocktail of the Chinese herbal formula called Relaxed Wonderer Plus, Absolute Mango Vodka, and an ounce of Heavenly Candy (to which she had developed an addiction, through the years, with my help). I had her mangled body stuffed and donated it to the Museu Nacional. To this very day, you may see her. She's on the third floor, in the diorama entitled "Aztec Virgin Sacrifice to the Sun God." She looks marvelous, with strategically placed native Indian feathres, silks, and beads, concealing any traces of piranha bites and traumatic scars.

I have returned to the east coast of America, and obtained an estate on the outskirts of Secaucus. I have rebuilt, deep within the bowels of my mansion, a clone of my first Brain Exchange. This model though, is much faster, gentler and more fuel efficient. Green as they say nowadays. I’m on Scruff now, nightly, rummaging for a suitable male subject, and tomorrow you may see me shopping at the Short Hills mall for a new child bride. End

GREEN TEA c. 2023 by Saintorr

On his early morning walk in the woods near their campsite, his father found a large, thick brown and gray stick with a pointed end, around 5 inches in diameter. It was the perfect tool for the job. It was about an hour after sunrise, with the air chilly for early September. Tiny sparrow-like finches with stripped brown and white heads peeped and fluttered about in their early morning feeding, as plumes of fog floated just above the grass. The sky was plumb-grey ash with dirty clouds jutting out like 3D cutouts wrapped in polluted brownish paste. Gustavo, the Father, now stood outside his family’s small, blue tent, stick in hand, waving it above his head like a crazy baton.

“Carlos, time to wake up” he yelled to his son inside. The boy’s two older sisters and his Mother, were standing impatiently about 10 feet away, in a semi-circle around the white ashes of the cold, dead fire. That same fire had warmed them all until the wee hours of the morning. Gustavo was a short, portly man with bowed legs, a deep-set brow and small eyes barely visible above his fat cheeks, cheeks pitted like raisons from being picked at incessantly, from so many years of acne that afflicted him from when he was a teenager until now. He called out again toward the tent, an impatient edge to his voice now.

“Carlos—hey I’m not gonna tell you again, wake the fuck up you little piece of shit. Ven aqui!” Inside the tent, six-year-old Carlos tensed and sat up suddenly, rubbing his eyes, he was afraid immediately, he felt his insides open with the fear. That tone in his father’s voice indicated slaps and punches from Poppi would be coming soon. His open wounds from the last beating a few weeks ago were barely healed. Like a prison guard, every morning his fat Mother, demanded to inspect him after breakfast (which usually consisted of a piece of stale, white Wonder bread covered with sickly, sweet, Welches grape jelly) and before he left for school. She ignored his two porcine older sisters but forced Carlos to stand up straight, back against the kitchen wall like a wooden soldier. She checked to make sure he wore dark, long-sleeved shirts with high collars or turtleneck dickies to school, thus insuring that no one would notice the marks and bruises all over 90% of his body he endured from the monthly beatings of his father.

The air felt cold and looking through the open flap of the tent, Carlos, in his brown and beige monkey PJs began to shake as he stared at the cold plumes of steam rising from the ground. And there stood his Father, like some scary troll, glaring at him and brandishing a thick, three foot pointed stick. Thundering toward the tent, Gustavo bent down and entered. Carlos jumped and backed up in the electric, blue air but he wasn’t quick enough as his Father lunged toward him and grabbed the red-starred collar of the boy’s PJs, pulling him outside, then standing up unsteadily, still holding onto the collar of the boy’s now partially unbuttoned PJ top, one lone shirttail hung outside of his bottoms. His Father, now wheezing with effort, threw the boy to the ground into the cold, grey-white, dead fire’s ashes. In a slowly shrinking, curved line, his fat Mother and sisters closed in around him. “Come on do it Papi—whatever you gonna do—it’s so early! Why you get us up this early? Do whatever the fuck you’re gonna do already" Gutavo’s fat wife bleated like an angry goat.

“I’m gonna show you all what great little exercises my little-rat son Carlos can do. Come here hijo.” Carlos took small steps toward his father, his knees shaking and his breathing now shallow and quick. “HEY-VEN AQUI!…” His Father grabbed his son again, pulling him and with the other arm, he stuck the blunt end of the thick stick into the ground. The stick went in easily, as the ground was firm but not yet frozen; with a good 28 inches of the sharp end visible and sticking out. Now he made his son stand directly over the thing.

“There, there. Now stand right over the point. There” said Gustavo. “Good. Perfecto. Open your legs a little more.” Carlos obeyed, terrified now and beginning to cry.
 “A-hah. Now bend your knees ratito.” Carlos cried harder and louder, his little boy’s body shuddering with every breath.

“OH POBRECITO, que lastima” Gustavo intoned with a sarcastic, grand tone, like some campy villain in a cheap 60’s Mexican horror film. “Ciera la boca. Now bend your knees!” Carlos, shaking, did as he was told and felt the penetrating top of the stick poking through his monkey PJ bottoms until he could just feel the hard, sharp point grazing the bottom of his butt. He whimpers became a soft scream, like a terrified fox makes when cornered.

“Now, bend your knees hijo. Yes, that’s good. Lower, lower”

“Make him go deeper” yelled his fat Mother. The two older sisters were now laughing with large, round, wide-open eyes. Carlos did as he was told and screamed louder as he felt the sharp, top of the stick begin to enter his little boy's butt. Now, there was a surging pain burning his insides. His scream pierced the air like the high, sharp wail of a train whistle. His Father stood closer to him now, placing both hands on the boy’s shoulders and thrusting the boy’s body down, even lower, impaling him.

“Aaayeeee” screamed the boy over and over. Now his legs were shaking and blood was running down his legs from his butt soaking through his PJ bottoms. His Mother and two sisters were laughing louder now gleefully as if they were watching hilarious cartoons, or a cock fight.

“That’s some exercise you got him doin’ Daddy” his wife lisped. “He needs to go deeper though huh?” “Si, mas.”

Gustavo pushed the small frame down one final time. The echoes of the boy’s screams could be heard miles and away in the deep evergreen forest. In the higher air currents above the scene, a yellow-tailed hawk glided lazily on the higher air currents, scanning the ground, searching for lunch.

Later when they returned home to their projects in the Bronx, in their parking space, the SUV stopped and Carlos’ Mother and his sisters emerged. Gustavo got out and reached into the far back seat, dragging and carrying his unconscious son out of the vehicle, his fat wife slamming the door behind him. The boy had been passed out for hours. His parents had wrapped him in a large, yellow smiley-faced, polyester fleece blanket. They’d wrapped him tight in the blanket like a trapped brown worm. The blanket had caught most of the blood seeping from the boy’s gnarled and frayed insides. Gustavo carried the small, limp rag-doll-like bundle into the yellow-grey building and rode the elevator up to the 13the floor with his fat wife and now solemn little girls and entered their apartment. Walking through the living room to the master bedroom, Gustavo lied Carlos down on the king-sized bed. While in a few minutes, his wife entered carrying a tray, upon which was a steaming cup of green tea.

“Come-on Carlito” his Mother rasped. “Green tea is healing—wake up little raton and drink. Drink por favor hijo" she intoned, noticing his chest moving up and down but his eyes remaining closed as she stroked the boy's thick, black velevty hair. She left the green tea on the tiny table next to the bed. Returning to the kitchen, she felt tired and her back ached.

Coming back some 30 minutes later, and checking on the boy, she noticed he hadn’t touched his tea which was now cold and, indeed hadn’t even moved at all. When she bent over him and touched her finger to his cheek, his face was grey-green and his neck and body felt stiff cold and to the touch. She screamed and her eyes gushed crocidile tears. “Oh God, Oh sweet, baby Jesus, call 911” she wailed. “Call them somebody, POPPI, oh baby Jesus... Oh God somebody help him--my baby boy is dead. My baby boy is DEAD, oh God, oh God Oh God!"

Mr. Material Man...I have become the technology I hate!

LA BUENA VISTA BIRTHDAY

Manuel Antonio, Costa Rica December 2022

Carla was screaming. Screaming like she’d never screamed before. Thoughts were running wildly through her brain like an out of control train grinding and screeching off the rails with huge winged trails of sparks fanning out behind. How could this be happening? It was her birthday! Her getaway dream vacation in Costa Rica. This was supposed to be paradise! She was in a gated, luxury, five-star resort retreat surrounded by acres of rich, verdant palm trees, in the middle of a live, rain-cloud forest teaming with exotic wildlife. She screamed and screamed again as she used her hands to fend off the six-inch gleaming blade the security guard with his cold, black, dead eyes was thrusting toward her. She gasped in disbelief and her eyes widened as the outstretched palm of her hand came into contact with the tip of the knife blade and felt a rush of horror and nausea as she felt it slice through her palm and penetrate out the back of her hand. Far away a part of her felt her unanswered screams being absorbed and disappearing into the slanting, silvery-black, steaming sheets of rain. And far away deep in her mind, she knew she was going to die. But here? Like this? The blade tingled inside her hand, clean and numbing like a warm butter knife penetrating a quarter of soft-hard butter or wedge of semi-hard Gouda cheese.

Only 20 or 30 minutes before, she had called the security guard’s tiny office and asked him if he could walk the 500 feet to the front desk vending machine and purchase a small bottle of water for her. She didn’t want to get wet, for the heavy rain had been falling since twilight. And she was tired and had a plane to catch early in the morning. It was just past 12 midnight when the security guard arrived and settled in for his shift when she called him. “No problems senorita” the Guard had replied on the phone. Shortly after her call, he knocked on her door with the bottle of water in hand. After she took it from him and was reaching into her purse for money, he had smiled and suddenly pushed his way in. She held her purse to her breasts and began backing up inside the room toward the balcony. “What are you doing?” She yelled. “What’s wrong with you?” “WHAT’S WRONG WITH YOU?” She screamed then, noticing the strange, dead, insane look in his eyes. “Para ti, senorita, para ti” he said, his lips and tongue making a sickening clicking sound as he advanced, slicing and thrusting a small, jade green thing through the air, back and forth and up and down as if blessing her with a demonic sign of the cross. It was then that she saw and heard the sharp, click of the silver blade emerge from the handle of the knife he held in his hand. “Para ti senorita, para ti" he kept murmuring coming closer and close. The rain continued falling, heavy, deep and thick like damp smoke, soaking and caressing the jungle in its warm cascades and deadening all sound. It fell on the giant palms, the sleeping birds, with their eyes open under their canopies, the big and small spiders waiting to mate in their secret hiding places, the phosphorescent scorpions, the tiny, cartoon-like frogs with their green and red suction cup legs clinging and singing in the jungle night. And it fell on the vipers, coiled and digesting their prey, hanging, fat, and unmoving invisibly nestling within the drenched branches of trees. The rain fell and the sounds smothered Stefania’s screams. The rain fell on the guard’s tiny, lit office and it fell on the high, wrought-iron, curved gate, with the sculpted, metallic, fleur-de-lis patterns, surrounding the bronze-gold plaque reading “Welcome to La Buena Vista, a Sanctuary and Safe Space For All to Rest, Relax and Renew.” Next to the English words was the Spanish translation, with a circle of tiny hummingbirds surrounding the letters embedded like jewels set in the thick, black, wrought iron fence.

Her screaming continued to be drowned out by the great, white noise of the falling rain, and eaten up by the jungle's dark. The security guard stepped back now pulling the knife out of la Gringa’s palm then jabbing again at her arms, thrusting toward her shoulders, then slicing across her breasts. Her wounds bloomed through her turquoise-colored top and sports bra. One quick jab pierced and penetrated her left nipple deep into her breast up to the hilt of the switchblade. Carla grunted and gasped. To the security guard the noises she made sounded like sex. He continued to jab and penetrate her stomach then, the soft tissue of her belly retracted at the pain and her abs contracted as the blade penetrated into her gut. He aimed some jabs again, higher, this time toward her head, and with one high, quick thrust, poked her in the left eye, the blade penetrating deep into her eyeball, it’s pulpy fluid popping out and over onto her cheek. This blow seemed to stun her so that her screaming ceased and she lost her balance, falling and hitting her head with a thick “THWACK” against the white balcony railing and crumpling to the floor. Edges of rain drops spattered on her bloody face and torso as she writhed slowly, moaning. “Por favor…why?” More words disappearing in the rain. By her head, the small bottle of water rolled toward the edge of the balcony’s pink cement floor slipping under the railing down into the darkness. Both the security guard’s hands were covered with blood, so that his grip on the jade green handle of the switchblade was slippery. The switchblade had been christened “El Verde” and was a birthday gift he’d purchased for his six-year-old son, just days before. Upon unwrapping the mysterious gift, the child had been fascinated by the speed and force with which the glimmering, steel blade had flicked out of the smooth, shining, translucent jade handle. He’d pressed the small, secret button again and again releasing the blade and then folding it back into its mysterious, unseen hiding place. The child smiled and laughed as he did this over and over. After a few days, however the Security Guard and his wife decided to hide the knife from the child, for the blade was so sharp the boy had cut himself a number of times, while playing alone with the lethal toy. His wife had stashed it in the bottom drawer of the couple’s bedroom dresser. A few days later before his shift began, the security guard retrieved the knife from its hiding place and took it with him as he started his midnight to 10 A.M. shift at La Buena Vista where he worked seven nights a week. During his shift, when alone in his tiny office, he would remove the switchblade from the pocket of his khaki uniform and play with it, much like his son had. When he was sure he was alone, he would release the blade again and again, caressing the warm, smooth, deep jade green handle of the knife. Then he would kiss the blade after flicking it open and lick it with his tongue oh so carefully. Sometimes he would crouch, with bent knees, parrying and thrusting the sharp blade into the faces and bodies of invisible demons—always careful that he was alone, always sure no one was watching. The flick and switch and release of the hard, steel blade made his cock, hard, hot and heavy with gorged blood. His cow of a wife had been too tired for sex after their son was born. When he couldn’t stand it any more, he had to slap her and force her to open her legs to satisfy him. She knew that first slap was a signal for her to offer up to him what he wanted, whether she was tired or not. She assumed her position by silently lying on her back with her butt raised and waiting. For if she didn’t oblige him more slaps were sure to come and they stung and hurt when he showered her with them all over her belly, breasts and buttocks if she didn’t comply immediately to his will. As he thrust the knife through the air at invisible demons, he recalled how many times he was bullied and beaten on the way home from school when he was a child in the poor barrio in the inner city of the capital where he was born. This happened day after day until an older cousin gave him a miraculous gift, his first knife El Rojo. El Rojo had a sparkling ruby red handle and was a switchblade too. His cousin taught him how to use it well, for he was a gang member. One day, the boy surprised the bullies and used “El Rojo” on them when they followed him home after school taunting and laughing at him. “Hey maricon, pendejo!” They called laughing and making piggy grunting sounds. Then he turned on them. With El Rojo in hand, he attacked. He made them bleed and cry and chased them away so that they never bothered him again.

The security guard had been noticing la Gringa, the hot, little American blond from Miami all week long. He’d made small talk with her. She spoke fluid Spanish, was originally from Venezuela and was here for a week, celebrating her birthday. He smelled her perfume as she passed him, late at night. His shift began at Midnight, in his tiny office at the front gate of the resort-retreat. While sitting or standing in his tiny Guardhouse office, late at night when she passed him, he’d noticed her tetas, ample and round. Her lips full and swollen. He imagined kissing those lips and touching her big tetas roughly with his hands; kneading, sucking then biting and chewing on them. He watched her walk with her full ass and thighs unusually big on such a seemingly small, dainty body. Her ass moved seductively, like large melons rolling together as she walked modestly with just the barest hint of playfulness, in her shiny, gold sandals passing his guardhouse on that way to her room late at night on the second floor of the nearest complex, Number 13. He had noticed her on all of the previous five nights since she’d checked in. She seemed both woman and little girl, with an attitude that said “I’m too good for you. You can look at me. But you will never, ever have me.” And this made his soul burn, like salt in a wound. This puta, whom he couldn’t have, who was too good for the likes of him, passing by him late every night. This little whore, this Gringa—she chafed at him like wet sand chafes at your feet and rubs in between your toes after you walk in the waves of the ocean with your sandals on. She teased him, like a little mosquito that buzzes around your head in the dark on late summer nights and bites your neck but you can never kill it or see it until it flies, drifting by with its bloated belly full of your blood, in front of a big, brightly lit flat-screen TV; buzzing by as if laughing at you and then disappearing into the dark to bite and suck your blood even more. He found himself thinking about her as he lay next to his cow of a wife, late into the night. Tonight la Gringa was all alone. There were no lights on any of the other rooms adjoining hers and the next wing of the complex was a good 10 minutes away, adjoining the front service area with its check-in desk and vending machines. The clerks were long since gone. And now, this rain! The rain was his friend, his ally, for it drowned out all sound. He was totally alone with her. And tonight he could have fun. Fun with her and El Verde. And she was leaving tomorrow. Checking out. No one would ever know. Perfecto. “No problema Senorita. Perfecto.” he reassured her over the phone when she asked him to bring her the bottled water. After he hung up the phone, he kept repeating "no problema Gringa" like a mantra, to himself again while staring at her lit window through the rain where her silhouette moved restlessly. He removed “El Verde” from the pocket of his uniform again and flicked the blade open with a short, metallic, whispering “CLICK.” So efficient, so cold, hard and sharp. At the sound, his cock came alive, hardening and straining against his underwear and his pants, like some wild thing. He caressed the sweet, sharp blade with his free hand, while rubbing his cock with the other,then retracted the blade back into the jade handle where it became invisible. He did this again and again, staring toward Number 13 where the birthday girl waited for his gift.


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